Sunday, May 29, 2011
Friday, April 29, 2011
I just got word that a friend of mine has a brain tumor. They will be going into surgery to get it removed and have it analyzed to make sure that it isn’t cancer. I don’t know if this person is trying to make their situation public knowledge or not, so I am intentionally keeping names and details out of this post. I am writing to ask for the prayers of everyone out there. This is a very scary time for my friend and their entire family. Thank you all for the support.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Tomorrow I move out of my parent’s home for the 3rd and final time (knock on wood). It has been wonderful to take this time at home to re-center myself. But, now it’s time to move on, and tomorrow the journey begins. I will be plunging myself back into a singles ward, and back to living on my own. It’s a little scary, but mostly refreshing. I am really excited about the chance I have to start fresh.
Also, I am currently registered for all of my remaining classes to graduate! I have 6 credits in the spring and 15 credits in the Fall and then I’m done! I will be graduated by Christmas!!! I am so excited about that. I love BYU, but I am so tired of the grind. It will be nice to move on to a real job.
Friday, April 8, 2011
After months of waiting it has finally happened. My divorce is final! I cannot describe how relieved I feel to finally have that not hanging over me. I didn’t mind the wait at first, because I needed the time. I needed time to mentally recover, to emotionally stabilize, and to spiritually strengthen myself. However, the last month or so has been very difficult. I had gotten to a place where I was ready to move on with my life, but my life wasn’t quite ready to move on yet. Well, now I can!
It is still going to be fairly scary to move back into the world of dating, but it’s a good sort of scary. I’m nervous and excited all at the same time. I’m sure it will be the beginning of a long and frustrating process, but I am just happy to be moving on to the next step.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
The good side of this is that I've been wanting a new computer. I think I will always be wanting a new computer, but this gives me an excuse to go and get one. So, until the new one arrives I will be making due with the lab computers. It should be enough to pull me through the end of the semester.
While I believe I will make it through the end of the semester in spite of my computer woes, it really stinks that now is the time it decided to die. Just one week later and this mini crisis would have simply been an annoyance.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
The worst part is the waiting, the over analyzing, the wondering, and the feeling of instability. The last few months have, and continue to be, such a period for me. I am in the final stages of a divorce from my first wife. The emotional trauma that comes with such an event has made me relish the thought of slowing down and focusing on the core essentials in life. However, as the days and months have passed I have become increasingly more capable of dealing with life. I am nearly 5 months removed from the moment when we admitted that it just wouldn't work. During this time I have had a wonderful opportunity to focus on me and how to improve myself. However, the last few bits of legal paperwork are still sitting on the judges desk waiting to be signed.
So, I find myself ready to move on. Ready to engage life again. Ready to (dare I say it?) re enter the terrifying world of girls and dating. But, I can only stare at that adventure as it slowly rides toward me. Everyday I hope that I will hear that all the paperwork has been signed and finalized, and every day has ended in silence. It's a maddening feeling to know that you have done everything you can do and know that there is more to be done. The boat seems closer than ever, but it isn't here yet. Limbo!
I hope the boat comes with seat belts. I just know it's going to be a bumpy ride.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
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